My Boys My Awesome Trip

Breathing heavy sweat is on my brow pain en-wraps my body the time is here and now!
I feel this life thats growing deep within my soul,
its more then just a baby he's my heart my my life my all
the Dr says he's coming so push just one time more a gasp, a cry........relief , as he enters his new world!
He's one he's two he's three good grief how can this be
he goes from four to seven he's my little piece of heaven
I see he's gone from eight to now he's almost ten he's talking like a grown up so when did this begin?
fourth grade came and went sixth grade is in the fall.... this morning when I woke up... it was the daddy of them all.... his high school years have started, tomorrow he will drive, each time I take a breath I pray thanks that he's alive.... the prom was kinda scary a test for him and me. will he be the man I raised I know that he can be..... One hour left to go he'll walk across the stage. he's no more just a kid it's his graduation day.... now moving on through college the time flew by so quick....a job...a wife..... now kids his own...Begin HIS awesome trip!!!!!

What am I here for?

Sometimes I wonder what God wants from me. I think about all the things that go on in my life and I can not seem to get a grasp on them. I try to make sense of it and try to put it is some order to make ME feel better about what may be happening. What I have come to realize is that the purpose God has set forth in my life is good and right no matter what I think. I am learning to "fall in love with Christ" and see my life as a vessel for His purpose.
Have you ever thought of your self as a distraction? I have found myself becoming a distraction. I have learned to distract myself from the very thing I thought I was working for a close relationship with Christ. We can be so distracted by teaching a Sunday School lesson that we do not even hear what God is trying to say through it.
I guess what I am trying to say is that I am slowing down to hear God and love HIm!